Let’s get acquainted
Oh wow, have I been rude and not really introduced myself?
I wanna change that. I am Viktoria Kshevinskaya, a founder of BE School Space.
You might got here because of our personal connection or maybe you downloaded one of meditations or attended some of events.
I want you to know me better to see if my experience resonates with you and whether or not we are a good match to work together.
Send me a message to tell me how you feel and to schedule a free pre-event if you want to discover opportunities on how I can support your healing journey.
I created my school back in 2015 (initial name was Boost your English), when I started my spiritual journey. I entered the path through a sexual abuse trauma and a very painful divorce and for the first few years it was all about healing myself and searching for the inner peace.
Outside it might have looked differently, but back then I had no strength to admit, that my life was destroyed, everything I valued before disappeared. I was having some addictions and had no idea how to start my life from the scratch, how to stop searching for outside validation and how to build trust from within.
I started with teaching languages as that was the path I knew from before, although already in 2016 I created a speaking program and through simple speaking tasks I already started transmitting different values to people.
Look at it on a deeper level, when everything you knew and loved no longer exists, you are becoming very selective with what you fill your life up with.
I started meditating and addressing new concepts for me, such as gratitude, balance between giving and receiving. But not until later I could master the emotional stability of myself. I was easily dragged out of balance, I was pushing through in the masculine energy, as I had a little child to provide for and as a single mom, I had no one to rely on. I had to get my business up and running, although I felt that something was off.
I was hiding beyond the language teaching and secretly doing my energy work. Here we can be more loving, here we can be more kind, here we can trust more, here we can built self-esteem.
It was not an easy journey. I did not have much support back then. I felt like I am going through very deep snow in my tropical swimsuit. But I kept going.
I learnt about all different marketing strategies, about having a blog, opt-ins, technology for that, content-creation, I was an Instagram monkey, thinking about a content plan, tags, launches. The language school blog was about 25k and I was completely burnt out.
Before COVID I received the name of BE School Space, as I wanted to squeeze Boost your English into BE and start doing something else. But at that year I was sucked into the service-to-self portal, as I was traveling back to my country of origin (Russia). I was stuck there for 6 months, my daughter's father after a constant battle field blocked her way out of the country and I had to find my peace in a place I didn't want to be in due to the paperwork processes, but I also had to boost my online service to be able to survive, so at that time I focused on teaching kids and adults online.
Later when we relocated back to Bali just before the lockdown, I continued with language teaching for about a year because of the high demand of my service.
But deep inside of me dissatisfaction was growing, I was not so inspired to keep publishing new things on that dying Instagram account. I was not passionate about creating language content.
I was deeply grieving the loss of my best friend who passed away because of COVID and the artificial coma the doctors put him on to be able to use lungs ventilator.
At that point my life stopped.
I was meditating a lot. I was exploring what else is there for me energy-wise. I was learning about emotional regulation, about my body, about the stress-respond. I was constantly crying, and learning that it is ok.
I was completely shocked about the society we live in, although the first awakening stages I passed back in 2015, when my boss raped me, and I quit my PA job. And I no longer wanted to live in the consumeristic world, waiting for 2 weeks vacation. In 2019 I was still struggling with this trauma popping up all the time and playing out in my business and personal relationship.
During COVID time I started exploring our galactic origin, I was convinced, we are much more than this body. And there is a lot we do not see. My senses were not fully activated back then, they were, but I didn't trust them much.
I had so many questions. What is beyond? What happens after death? Why do we incarnate? Why do we do it over and over again? What else is there? Why do we play this money-power games? Why are people so disconnected from their hearts?
My father wound abandonment trauma, was constantly triggered by traumatic relationships, where I was hoping and searching for heart to heart connections, but the partners I was with were shallow waters swimmers, they were not willing to go deep enough.
I was thinking that something was wrong with me. I really wanted to die. I was so depressed. I could not understand why I had to play that money-money-money game. I had absolutely no interest in connections, business, self-expression.
I have a child to take care of. But even that was kind of on autopilot.
I was in the healing portal. Learning about myself.
I noticed that the bugs are here. Artificial thoughts placed intentionally into our systems to control our minds. To make us obedient and follow the rules.
I started going deeper into exploring my body. Where the trauma is stuck within me? How it is being played out in my life. How to deal with the emotions? How to feel the feels without numbing them?
I was very weak. I was constantly triggered. I felt I was broken. I felt I was not enough. I felt the only way to deal with it was to return to the heart.
At that point in 2021 I went on a celibacy journey to learn about my energy, it was a conscious choice. I started going deeper into sexuality. I was very much willing to be coupled, but all the connections were off. I felt not good enough. I felt there were no good men out there. I was very insecure and not really opening up.
My partners were not choosing me fully. I felt not lovable. I started learning about self-love. What else is there beyond the artificial lashes and make-up. Why I wanted to shave half of my head bold? What did I want to prove?
I started running self-development programs and services in 2021 for people to return to their hearts and balance the masculine and feminine energies. I was very fascinated by the idea of being in a sacred union and I was constantly calling-in my king. I wanted to teach about conscious relationship, but because I was searching for outside validation, I was receiving the judgement.
You are not in relationship yourself, how can you teach about them?
It was not easy. The most important part of conscious relationship is about not settling for less. Not agreeing to be in the place where your needs are not met. Staying in traumatic and toxic experiences just for the sake of being coupled.
I was trying to find my own balance between my desires and emotions and the values I held.
I am a very sexual being, I love feeling this energy, I love being creative, I love being inspired and loving. And I thought I need "an object" for that.
Only in 2022 I realized that actually I have the strength to say no, to reject amazing lovers, who have different values in life and are not going the same direction.
Once I was co-hosting a heart-opening ceremony for the clients, and it turned out that one of the men wrote a book. His intension prior the session was to open his heart for more love. But on the event it turned out that he wanted a million dollars and saw a woman as a distraction on his path and in the book he wrote and got published he was teaching men about the pick-up strategies to get a woman laid within 24h.
I was shocked.
At that point my puzzle came together. I realized about the manipulation and control placed into our system to make us serve false values.
I was so lost and frustrated. I didn't know who to trust and what to believe in. Since childhood I saw weird visuals in my dream-state and others states. I thought I had wild imagination. I was scared. It was also the period the war started and I felt strong necessity to serve people to return back to the hearts for them not to be so much in the lower density.
But I was in the battle field. I was constantly fighting the darkness.
At that point last year my sense of feeling and seeing the unseen was much stronger. I could see and feel something between the realms. I did not have clear awareness what it was.
Then someone quite strong spiritually came to field. My system had a strong reaction towards him, as if I remembered him, but not in a romantic way as before.
I shared about my struggles, my business issues and the connection with the unseen and he was willing to help. First I didn't trust him, but he was constantly reminding me that I "invited him". Yes, I was calling in help and support.
Apparently he was sort of a leader from service-to-self groups. He gave me some understanding about my visuals and the entities and the way our thoughts are being manipulated. But also he was trying to make me work with him or for him. I wrote more about this story on Sacred Sexuality Portal.
He was trying to give me some healing, his energy was strong, I could sense it. But he was a dark healer. He helped me disconnect from all sorts of other teachings, but he was constantly judging my way of doing things, gaslighting my visuals and experiences saying I am being manipulated by entities.
He dragged me to the 4D battle field, maybe I was there prior to that without understanding, I got into the galactic wars, where I was very much a warrior on the unseen, constantly alert and not knowing what truly was happening. He attacked me in a sexual way. He triggered my trauma, but I was strong enough to push him off. Although at that point he had already installed a lot of mind-control "equipment" into my energetic system.
I dropped into forgiveness. And even thought of working with him.
At that point I hadn't met anyone who had deeper spiritual experiences and understanding and I felt he had some wisdom.
But I was very confused, as all my visuals, senses and feelings were very gaslighted. He was making me very confused. He was saying that the values I had were wrong, that the codes I felt I wanted to create were not correct. I felt trapped. I felt lonely. I didn't know who to go with this to.
I was very interested in multidimensionality and ability to travel through the dimensions. I was learning about the merkaba-vehicle, I was reading a lot of information. I didn't understand, where I was going. Suddenly I had a lot of galactic beings around me, talking strange languages and giving those or these activations.
Somehow magically I had a conversation with my online friend Lilian and she directed me to someone she knew. Some of my community members already started their sessions with Jenn George and she was very helpful to deal with confusion. I contacted Jenn, and with a loving touch of a grandmother she helped me to understand what was happening, how I got there and how to return back to my true honest self and unlock my gifts and visions.
Refer to the podcast, where I spoke more about her and how my life changed after I met her.
Jenn taught me about the reverse codes, about service-to-self spiritual groups and service-to-others, about the galactic wars, about soul contracts, about Highest and Purest Frequencies.
It was a complete upgrade. I learnt that multidimensional traveling is possible without reverse codes such as merkaba, I learnt that sacred geometry is not so sacred. It was created to artificially limit the humanity. I will share more about it soon.
That was when I understood, what I came here to do and how I can serve the humanity through my heart-space. How I can heal my own trauma, and help people to heal themselves. How I can learn to trust my feelings and protect children from unnecessary danger. How I can address sexuality and all my experiences as valid and open up for more, for deeper connections and experiences.
At the same time, when I met Jenn, my sacred union with my current partner got activated. It is a very deep experience, where we are still learning and navigating love, sexuality, spirituality, triggers and trauma, projections and reactions together within the union. This experience has not been very long in this lifetime, although our personal understandings, feelings and inner work gave us ability to go deep. With this being said, I know it is not so much about the partners we are with, it is more about how deep we are with ourselves. I talk more about it in Sacred Sexuality Portal.
I am sharing this personal transformation process with you, for you to understand that I am not perfect, I am not a guru, I am not here to give you any teachings. I am here to share my experience and to support your growth, evolution and transformation.
I strongly believe, that we can live in a different world. That we can create what we want to create through the heart-space without constant money worries, but from the place of abundance. We can heal ourselves and understand how our emotions, triggers and feelings work. We can validate our own experiences and see it as a point of growth.
We can understand what we are truly passionate about and learn about our mission, about our true values, about our true feelings.
We came here to be our true authentic selves.
We can learn and grow together. We do not have to fight. We can find other ways of navigating life, where love is the guiding star for us.
We are here for the change. We are here for the love. We incarnated with the particular mission in mind and for that each of us has his own gifts and wisdom, waiting to be unlocked.
We came here not just to play the money-power games and to serve the self, but to serve the others and to support, heal and grow together, as unity, as one, as community.
We can learn how to build that deep trust from within, how to become confident, how to become honest. How to be sincere with our partners, with our parents, with our kids.
We don't need any masks. We don't need to hide anymore.
We can learn how to breathe fully, openly.
How to dance this life in a perfect harmony.
We deserve to be seen. We deserve to be loved.
We deserve to be well-paid.
We deserve to be honest.
Return to the heart.
Now is the time.
Viktoria Kshevinskaya
Founder of BE School Space
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