Proper Sexuality Template
So many women feel disconnected from their own body, disgusted by their own look.
So many women feel disconnected from their own body, disgusted by their own look
October 2022, by Viktoria Kshevinskaya
So many women feel disconnected from their own bodies, disgusted by their own look, shameful and as a result full of judgement.
We live in the era of porn, where we are having a projection that a female body has to be like that: manicured, pedicured, all wrinkles and hair removed. All the bellies must be flat and shapeless. And if something is not that way we feel worthless, ugly and disoriented.
Self-love and self-pleasure have never been fully accepted.
Many of us were “caught” in childhood during the moment of curiosity and as a result have been having this subconscious mind imprint that even the touch is inappropriate.
But nevertheless the energy is still there, we want to be touched, we want to feel the gentle sensations on our skin, we want our partners to give us slow and loving cuddles, but when we ourselves have no idea what that actually is, we can’t even communicate properly about our needs and wants.
We need to connect with our own body first to know what we truly desire.
We want to learn how to connect with our own body and to allow more pleasure into our life.
We want to be confident in our self-expression.
We want to release judgement and shame.
We want to adapt a different paradigm of thinking where we understand our needs, wants and boundaries.
We want to learn how to use our sexual energy for creativity.
We want to feel juicy and sexy again after we give birth to our children.
We want to be able to communicate to our kids for them to set up a proper template in their life.
But we need to understand what that proper template is.
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Balance of Masculine and Feminine Audio Transmission/Meditation and light code for your devices to remind you and to recalibrate your subconscious mind for the good of all
Divine Energy Embodiment Sessions are in person 1-on-1 or group events available both for men and women to clear up the stagnant energies, to step into the body, to remove the obstacles, to reactivate the feelings, to return into the heart and to open up for deeper intimacy, better communication, loving and supportive relationship.
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I Rejected Several Most Amazing Lovers of My Life
Shadow aspect of desires has always been present for me.
Shadow aspect of desires has always been present for me
April 2022, by Viktoria Kshevinskaya
I made poor choices in life, agreed for something out of craving and stayed in relationship for too long or even ignored the red flags to begin with.
I was there. I know how it feels with every cell of my being.
When I was younger, I had thoughts and feelings that if I was born as a man, my life would be much easier. I would not need to entertain the anxiety of the mind agonising on the topic of ‘he loves me, he loves me not’, instead I would just fuck everything around me.
Uhhhh
Slut-shaming is a huge part of our culture and suppressed sexuality is a result of it.
It is very hard to find a balance between being a good girl and desire of being bent over and fucked really hard.
I do not need to interview multiple men to come to a conclusion that there is nothing a man wants more than a woman who would be dripping with desire for him and would be liberated and expressing her seductive nature and pumping up his masculinity by just being her.
And for sure being with a woman who knows what she wants is a gift and a push beyond your limits also.
A couple of years ago when I had a chance to come across sacred sexuality, I was so shocked when I realized that there is so much more there for me.
I was self-pleasuring since early teens, although it was connected with lots of guilt and shame as well as I was always fantasizing of a fantom Mr.X coming and being naughty with me. In my mind it was always connected with HIM. I thought I would have multiple (or even any) orgasms when I find the right one. And although inside I was really happy to be me, outside the situation did not develop the way I wanted it to.
There were no right partners I would agree to make love with, or when there were, the way it all played out, made me feel really depleted and disappointed. I thought I had to love sex, but all I did in uni ages was bit my lip and allow my partner to cum as fast as he could so that he would let me go and be busy with my life.
At some point my partner gave me vibrators as a gift. OMG I had no idea I could feel so much. I stayed there for a long time. Multiple years of self-pleasuring and lesbian porn were there for me. I was disgusted by mens penises displayed in porn. Lesbian movies were much more sensual for me. I started imagining me making love with women, and when the time came and it all started playing out in the reality, it was lots of fun, but not for long.
When I was with women, I loved dominating in my masculine energy, although my submissive nature needed me to be with a dominating male partner.
And then a good girl’s time came, I took away all my toys and got married. I was rather happy in my marriage, entertaining myself with a vibrator when I had a chance.
You know when a woman gets addicted to a vibrator, she can’t really cum in an intercourse, and with time obviously she loses interest.
Look at this vibrators industry: cum in 3 seconds, 500 types of rotation to make you cum faster and stuff like that, all those lubes to push that piece of plastic inside of your sacred temple without any preparation. And women agree for that, as they know nothing better.
How many women were diagnosed with ovaries disfunction feeling guilty for their lack of interest in sex, as they held so much pain, insult and shame from their partners which was manifested in tension in their ovaries and womb, without any ability to release it, going from one doctor to another and trying to cover up their dissatisfaction with the temporary solution in a form of pills.
A couple of years ago I bought myself a gift: a crystal yoni egg. I started exploring, how it can be helpful for my body, how pelvic floor muscles can influence my pleasure, how it can be healing. There was a lover who showed me the watery ability of my g-spot. And for some time I thought that my pleasure is locked on him, and when we separated I was devastated.
Apparently, at the same time I lost my other yoni toys in my own house, they literally fell down under my mattress and I couldn’t find them for a couple of months. As I had no other choice and I needed my pleasure badly, I started exploring my own body.
After that I enrolled in sacred sexuality programs and started going deep with myself. I discovered how much tension from not being held by my past lovers my body had. I went into a shamanic celibacy journey to learn how to circulate that energy within me, I learnt what it really means for me to have full body orgasm and a pleasure plato, and how to use that energy for creativity.
And after all that I realized that my pleasure does not depend on a partner, although it does depend on how relaxed I am and whether or not I feel safe with this particular person.
My boundaries were crossed multiple times in my life starting with sexual harassment at work and finalizing with impatient lovers, who couldn’t care less if my yoni was ready to let them in or not. I faced lovers who would shame me for being me, meaning I had lots of experience with multiple people, but in fact I just learnt who I am and what I want.
With all that being said I want to emphasise that my pleasure belongs to me. My body tension appears when I agree for less. My dissatisfaction arises when I search for outside validation.
Everything I need is already within me. The reason I want to come in contact with a partner is because I want to be dripping with desire and I want to have that magnificent energy exchange while being received where I am.
I like going very deep.
I like the moments when the time stops and nothing else exists. I like feeling appreciated and nourished. I like giving pleasure and riding the waves of love.
When we come into bedroom, we exchange all the ancestors’ trauma, programs, and pain both of us hold. We need to be very selective on the motives we choose to come into the intercourse with.
Porn taught us how to disconnect lower chakras from the heart, but when we pass the solar plexus and go to the heart and higher chakras while making love, the love bubble is so powerful that is can create realities, it is a psychedelic experience without drugs.
This is what we want. This is what love is about. This is why celibacy is needed to return to a default and to learn about yourself.
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Golden Dagger
Balance of Masculine and Feminine Audio Transmission/Meditation and light code for your devices to remind you and to recalibrate your subconscious mind for the good of all
Divine Energy Embodiment Sessions are in person 1-on-1 or group events available both for men and women to clear up the stagnant energies, to step into the body, to remove the obstacles, to reactivate the feelings, to return into the heart and to open up for deeper intimacy, better communication, loving and supportive relationship.
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Surrender to the Great Unknown
I’ve gone very deep with myself over the last years
I love good sex, but I need to be held. It is much more than penetration.
I’ve gone very deep with myself over the last years
December 2021, by Viktoria Kshevinskaya
I can tap into a different level of consciousness when I move sexual energy into the unknown, and I know how to take my partner there. But I need to surrender.
It is a very deep act of love...
That is what all women want.
Casual sex is no longer fun and no longer enough.
Have you ever been to the place where the time stops?
That moment of stillness like in a very deep spiritual act.
Where you surrender so much, that you no longer want to control anything. You just are.
Every woman wants to just be.
Every woman wants to show that moment of stillness to her partner. Through the eye-gazing, through being present, through the love you share.
The moment, where you can plant the seed of every dream, the quantum field of feelings and settle vibration.
If you pulse energy and move it through your chakras, the woman is able to share the Mother Earth energy that will support every creation, whether that is a baby or a project, but the creation will be divine.
If the woman is able to surrender to her king so that she no longer attempts to control anything, and the man is sensitive enough to feel her energy movement - the pulses she sends to him, when he is able to receive that and send it back to her with the penetrative force, she is taken to the divine.
And as a Goddess she gives blessing to all the creation.
Co-creation.
She gets so inspired by his presence, that her creative energy overflows and things magically start happening around her.
And yes, for the weak man it might feel like too much. But if the man is a divine masculine embodiment, that is the blessing his soul has been yearning for ages.
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Balance of Masculine and Feminine Audio Transmission/Meditation and light code for your devices to remind you and to recalibrate your subconscious mind for the good of all
Divine Energy Embodiment Sessions are in person 1-on-1 or group events available both for men and women to clear up the stagnant energies, to step into the body, to remove the obstacles, to reactivate the feelings, to return into the heart and to open up for deeper intimacy, better communication, loving and supportive relationship.
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Dark Masculine
Feminine is always challenging Masculine. Just by it's presence, by it's receptivity and authenticity.
Feminine is always challenging Masculine
Just by it's presence, by it's receptivity and authenticity
September 2021, by Viktoria Kshevinskaya
Feminine is always challenging Masculine. Just by it's presence, by it's receptivity and authenticity.
When dark masculine faces awakened woman, he has no idea what he is about to deal with. He has no idea how his reality will be shaken for him to face the shadows and the depth of his own presence.
When divine feminine is hurt and yearns, moans, sobs and screams from the pain caused by dark masculine not able to have the capacity of meeting her in the depth she cries so loudly, the mountain peaks get shaken. When her dark goddess is out he has no other way but to see that there is something wrong in the way he has treated her.
And that is a point of growth for sure, it is just not possible to hide behind those shadows any longer.
When dark masculine penetrates divine feminine, his shadows are brought up to the surface for him to be able to step into his power and embrace his potential.
But often the dark masculine has no idea what is going on, he does not understand why what he has done is not appropriate, why this attitude toward feminine needs to be changed, why he is constantly running in circles trying to find that "special one" his soul seeks connection with, with no results.
We are all here for the experience. For the experience of divine presence and loving kindness which is not limited to the close connections of ours but expands to all the beings and the Mother Nature.
Divine Feminine as the embodiment of Mother Nature, as the loving kindness, as the cyclic being, will always challenge the masculine.
If the Feminine is not awakened, not attuned to her own cycles, does not embrace her own shadows, does not have the emotional intelligence to understand the depth of her own triggers and reactions, she will always be attracted to the dark masculine. The relationship will always be "almost over" at the time of her moon, as she will see clearly that she is not being held by the masculine when she needs that the most. Consciously or unconsciously she will see the depth and be triggered. And she will project that onto the outside world.
Embracing the shadows within the relationship is an amazing opportunity of evolving together as a couple and collectively as humanity.
We all grew up in society, where it was not appropriate to speak to the masculine about the feminine cycles, the women were accused of being too emotional, irrational and "too much". But that is our power and not the shadow at all. We have that wisdom inside of us, which brings light into darkness and allows the pain to be seen.
Our souls yearn the deep connections, intimacy and sincere communication. We want to be met in the depth, but often we are scared to open up. We, as women, are scared, that the masculine will accuse us of "wanting too much". But that is our power and in that is our healing wisdom, transformative and supportive force of evolution present in every cell of our being.
I truly want more women to connect to their own feminine power and to help men to awaken as a species. I truly want to see more divine feminine and divine masculine coming into sacred unions and healing each other, embracing the shadows, doing the inner work and stepping into our true potential by healing the world through ourselves with pure love.
Embrace your potential.
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Golden Dagger
Balance of Masculine and Feminine Audio Transmission/Meditation and light code for your devices to remind you and to recalibrate your subconscious mind for the good of all
Divine Energy Embodiment Sessions are in person 1-on-1 or group events available both for men and women to clear up the stagnant energies, to step into the body, to remove the obstacles, to reactivate the feelings, to return into the heart and to open up for deeper intimacy, better communication, loving and supportive relationship.
Available upon request online/offline/on retreats